To Jen, Leigh and Lisa, it helps to a degree reading your posts as I sit here in bed alone writing this. For me personally that is still rawвЂ¦вЂ¦.itвЂ™s 5am into the early early morning and proper rest is evading me still. I must somehow find a way to get into work today cope with it despite the fact that my mind is processing a variety of confusing thoughtsвЂ¦.from him resting so he is stable to the fact I actually hate what his done all the lies and the fact IвЂ™m ashamed of what IвЂ™ve put up with over the years and let go to end up being cheated onвЂ¦вЂ¦..I have a good friend who I am seeing today who I have off loaded onto and she has been fantastic but she has a husband and 2 kids and basically her life is good they are good peopleвЂ¦вЂ¦..so I feel itвЂ™s to much to overload her withвЂ¦..basically IвЂ™m feeling alone in this even though I know IвЂ™m technically not with her to him I know having to come back as at the end of the day he works down here to a mixture of I need to be nice. It is assists stuff that is wring right right right here.
Because of the method IвЂ™m 50 also to be around in this position that is not my fault sucksвЂ¦..Men are shits actually, that which you state about integrity does work We have maybe perhaps not done this i will be maybe not really a liar and I also gets more powerful .